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Tuesday, 30 January 2007

so.... hm...

still doing the job i hate.. lols *sigh* anyhows. its been the same old in taiwan.. apparently time does go by fast when you're working and even faster when you're doing something you don't like.. hmm.. figures... it's hateful that my english is turning to shit and my chinese isnt getting any better... WEIRRDD.. the reason why i havent been updating is.. well.. i dont feel like i have that much new stuff to say... nothing new in my life.. nothing worth writing.. well.. in english anyways.. so it is true. people do adapt well even if they hate the life they have.. aka me.. but well.. ok. fine. i actually really enjoy my co-workers. they're fun as hell.. its the job that really gets to me.. and the people.. and just because everyone thinks that i'm improving and doing a decent job.. it still does not make it better for me.. or make me wanna keep this job till i die.. i'm a hopeless wreck.. if not anything i learned that i can actually suck it up and do something that i'm totally indifferent about and still fake through it as though i love it.. yes i'm a fake bastard... thats right. judge me all you want.. but thats how it is... and thats how i am..
damn do i hate myself

Friday, 05 January 2007

TOKYO... you mean happiness

so yes.. i`ve been here since the 2nd.. and damn am i enjoying being a lost soul.. much too much.. so i`ve pretty much spent the past few days being a bum doing nothing but stare at pretty people and doing ridiculously things that i dont think i`ll ever want my parents to find out... (but if you wanna know just ask *wink*) typical of tokyo.. most of the past few days i`ve been just standing around waiting.. not much really... but damn. it was the best waiting i`ve ever done in my entire fucking life.. well.. other than those few times in seattle.. but well.. you get the idea..

pretty much i`m doing a little planning against my parents and my boss... some EVIL planning.. shhhh... PUAHAHAHAH well.. its never the end till the FAT lady sings eh. i`m glad i came to tokyo... it was time to change the scenary anyways...
stand firm stand firm...be strong be strong...

fuk. i need money so bad. but then again.. who doesnt? sigh

Sunday, 24 December 2006

1. Will you be looking for a new job?
oh god yes. PLEASE. LET ME HAVE A NEW JOB!!!

2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
nope. cause i'm the loner hobbit that can have fun just sitting around PUAHAHHA

3. New house?
nah. but i really want a washer though..

4. What will you do differently in 07?
try to live more like myself and not some whiny bitch

5. New Years resolution?
find something i enjoy doing and DO IT

6. What will you not be doing in 07?
being a whiny bitch.

7. Any trips planned?
tokyo tokyo tokyo.. yes i lack originality

8. Wedding plans?
puahaha.. cause i'm a whiny bitch..

9. What's on your calendar?
wat calender. FUCK calenders. if everyday is the same fucking day. wats the difference?

10. What can't you wait for?
Seattle.

11. What would you like to see happen differently?
me making a lot more money and less hassle HAHAHAHA

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
so many things i dont even know how to start. but first. stop being a whiny bitch

13. What happened in '06 that you didn't think would ever happen?
me using up all my freaking LUCK and sucking in life

14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
well i'll very damn well try. but since i treat them real nice already i dont think they'll be complaining

15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in '06?
i have to... because my job SUCKS

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
nah. sober is awesome

17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
well.. it really depends on what particular 'realm' you're talking about

18. Will you do charity work?
i'm already doing it EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY

19. Will you go to bars?
nah. sleep is much much better

20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
yes. I HAVE TO.

21. Do you expect '07 to be a good year for you?
well.. i dunno about the first half. but i will always have the second half

22. How much did you change from this time last year til now?
too much. frankly. i hate what i've become... a whiny bitch

23. Do you plan on having a child?
hhahaha.. it takes 2 to tango

24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
most of them.. since i really dont have friends to start with.. LOLs

25. Major lifestyle changes?
i'm gonna try and lose my job before my boss realize what i'm plotting

26. Will you be moving?
god yes. PLEASE!

27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in '07 that happened in '06?
getting stuck in a freaking job that is killing me softly by the minute

28. What are your New Year's Eve plans?
sit at home and sip old people tea while watching dvds.. PUAHAHAHAHHA

29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
why. you offering?

30. One wish for '07?
new job new job new job new and better job YEAHHHH

Thursday, 21 December 2006

wow. my xanga is ugly nowadays... puahahah

been a whorish time.. i hate my job still but well.. shit happens

gonna be in japan in january for 7 days.. alas. at least some good is gonna be happening.

if you need me. you know where to find me.

Sunday, 19 November 2006

so my xanga is being weird..
well more like pchome is being a whore.. so anyhows
its gonna be weird for a while till i find another better free uploadinging webspace..

but all suggestions are welcome... i'm just too damn busy nowadays to find them myself.. SIGH